Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Here I am


Is there anyone there?

I thought I’d pop by to let Facebook friends know that despite an unhealthy interest in making statuses about cashew nuts, I am okay. I’m working hard. When I went to the cupboard this morning for a handful of cashew nuts to eat with my tea I was quite shocked at how few were left. I emailed Husband to ask (hopefully) if he’d been helping me out by eating them; sadly he confirmed that he didn’t like cashews unroasted and any consumption into the family pack of nuts in the cupboard will have been me. Eeek.

Anyway, the good news is that I’ve finished them tonight. I just need the strength not to buy anymore.

Along with having cashew control problems I’ve been having mad dreams. They started a couple of weeks ago.

One dream involved being bitten by a snake. Its fangs hung on the fleshy skin between my thumb and my forefinger and I was upset and worried that it would fall off and I wouldn’t remember what kind of snake had bitten me. The biting took place opposite Emporium, a mall in Bangkok and then the scene cut to London where I was wandering through the streets trying but failing to find the railway station to take me to the hospital.

Last night I had a dream that a cult was trying to recruit me.

But the weirdest one was nearly three weeks ago just as I started working on the novel. Husband was pregnant and he delivered two babies and then several weeks later he delivered the other four. In the dream I didn’t take much notice of the first two: I think our existing children and their cousins were ‘looking after’ them. I found the babies under a bed when Husband delivered the other four and I knew then that I had to start looking after them. I had the strongest feeling even in my dream state about these six babies. I knew they would be loved and I’d do what I had to do but the sense of disappointment I felt that I wouldn’t be able to finish my novel was so palpable.

Anyway I probably haven’t reassured any of you that I’m okay. I probably should’ve kept quiet about the weird dreams and cashew nut fetish… but you know I’m not getting out much at the moment.


Helen said...

Hello! I'm here. I read on Caroline's blog I think that she has weird dreams when she's writing her books. (Well, I think I did, unless I was dreaming that!) So you're in good company.


sheepish said...

Perhaps there is a link between overdosing on cashew nuts and weird dreams? Or maybe you are being so creative that dreams are an outlet for left over ideas. I have actually had some sleep recently and have dreamed for the first time in a very long time, so I quite like it weird or not!!

Queenie said...

Today I have started editing my own novel, along with some dedicated scoffing of chocolate brownies, so I expect the weird dreams will be along any night now.

Deborah Carr (Debs) said...

I always seem to dream and some of them can be a little strange. Maybe now you've finished those cashew nuts (love them too) your dreams may calm down a bit.

HelenMWalters said...

Do you think the cashew nuts and the dreams are linked at all?

Su said...

You're brave to share your dreams... mine are usually too weird to even tell my husband! Although I giggled at you finding the babies the way one usually finds kittens. :)

And I do the same thing with any kind of nuts we have in the house.

Jenny Beattie said...

Helen, excellent company. I'm going to take that as a good omen. Thank you.

Sheepish, so glad to hear you're getting sleep hon. No the dreams started before the nuts did...

Queenie, yum to chocolate brownies. Good luck with your editing.

Debs, I hope so but I think it might be the book that's causing it. All those anxieties!

Helen, see above: no, it's the book rewriting, I think.

Su, brave or stupid? I did wonder. I'm fairly self controlled about other nuts.... nah, who am I kidding? No I'm not!

Myne said...

I also think the nuts are responsible for the dreams, just like cheese at night is reputed to. The last was really weird.

Joanna St. James said...

let me interpret it for you.
The babies represent published books, your hubs giving birth to them means these books are coming from the best part of your heart.
Do you like my interpretation? I have been chewing some cashew nuts too

BEAST said...

Don't worry about the sextuplets, it's all turn out OK in the end.


Ragged Thread Cartographer said...

The snake dream. In my personally adopted mishmash of mythologies the snake is wisdom. Therefore you are about to become wise, Oh Wise One already.. The babies – typical anxiety dream? Worrying that you can’t spare enough time when others present you with new problems to be fixed. You know you’ll never let your loved ones down. This is me trying to be extremely brief. I love Joanna St J’s idea.