Wednesday, June 09, 2010


I received an email from Husband this morning in which the subject line was 'Blog.' I'm not sure what he meant; was it the imperative or a simple noun?

It's part of his morning routine to check out my blog and he gets a bit irritable if I don't provide him with some reading material. He knows I have tales to tell... like the one about my taxi driver who, during a traffic jam, peed into an empty water bottle; yes, really, and then threw the bottle out of the passenger window! Ewgh.

I am struggling at the moment. I am struggling with the not knowing... the what if we are going back? Will we get places in schools we'll be happy with? I AM trying to be calm and serene ("You ARE?" I hear Husband say. "Well, please try harder...") but I am failing quite spectacularly.

We should know soon. 'Soon?' It has been 'soon' for months. I've made myself furiously busy, running around so I don't have to think.

But I am thinking and when I think I worry.

So I'm not sure how often I will be posting here... in the coming days.

I just thought I should let you know.


Queenie said...

I'm crap with uncertainty too. It seems to dominate everything, like standing on shifting sands, and leaves me unable to think about anything else. I hope you do know soon, really soon. Hugs x

green ink said...

**hugs** Uncertainty is so hard to live with day to day. I hope you can find the resolutions and ways forward you're seeking. xx

LilyS said...

Thanks for the post JJ, thinking of you and hope you hear something soon.

Boonsong said...

Thanks for this.
If I don't have a reasonable amount of control of a situation and I also don't have enough information to formulate a fall-back plan, then I worry and brood too. I think that it's part of the human condition - the downside of the survival instinct.

But your internet friends are with you here. My thoughts are with you.

Thanks for sharing this with us.

Yours empathetically, Boonsong

Wendy T. said...

I've been following your blog for several weeks, after coming upon it quite by accident. I look for it everyday, and when you don't post I wonder and worry about you and your family whom I have never met. I hope you do find a way to keep posting, I'm sure there are lots of people like me out here who read what you write and miss you when you don't. We do care about what's happening in your world.

Lane said...

Hope 'soon' hurries up and appears JJ. It's horrible when things are all up in the air. x

SueG said...

There's an old Guiney saying: "flux sucks" Keep breathing and let us know when you come up for air.

liz fenwick said...

Hugs - I hate doing the limbo thing.


Debs said...

How frustrating for you. I do hope everything sorts itself out soon, so that you can relax again.

- Suzie - said...

Oh, you are leaving?

Now that I am moving to BKK?
I would have liked to meet you. And hope you will stay there a little longer. No?

Do you know where? Or is this uncertain too?

We have decided for Patana school.
Really liked it.

Angie said...

Hang in there, JJ. It's not fun to wait and worry. I hope you hear news soon so you can start planning! Sending hugs your way. xx

Carol said...

Hanging about waiting for a decision must be absolutely awful hon!! Try not to worry too much...either way you will be absolutely fine!!

Keeping fingers crossed that you hear sooner rather than later


C x

Shirley Wells said...

Uncertainty takes over your life. I hate it. It saps every last grain of creativity.
Good luck with it all and I hope everything works out well.

JJ Beattie said...

Thank you all for your lovely comments. I'm so touched by your words and concern. The political upheaval took its toll, exams are a constant stress and not knowing just felt like the icing on the cake. But, it's funny how, in saying out loud 'I'm struggling,' so many of the tensions ... eased just a bit.

As soon as we know anything for sure we will let you know.

Thank you all.

Flowerpot said...

Fingers crossed JJ - the not knowing is very difficult isn't it? Thinking of you. xx

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Amelia said...

I can't believe your taxi driver would do such a thing INFRONT of you! Where is the propriety these days?

I hope you find out really really soon!

Chris Stovell said...

Best wishes to you and yours at a difficult time.

Suzanne Jones said...

Your taxi driver peeing in the bottle is worse than the nurse I know who peed in a pressure cooker while stuck in a traffic jam on the motorway for five hours - at least she didn't throw the pressure cooker out of the window.

Thinking of you and your family. Hope everything's sorted soon.


Cathy said...

Uncertainty is very unsettling. But the one thing I've learnt in the last few years is that nothing is ever certain. We can only go with the flow and take life one day at a time.

I hope you hear soon.