Monday, August 13, 2007

*sigh*

If it's this hard, does it mean I'm not cut out to do it?

No-one said it would be easy, but is it meant to be this difficult?

11 comments:

Caroline said...

Yip.
Afraid so.
Sorry. But yes.

It's a bugger most of the time.
And most of the time I want to give up and hide under the table.

;-)

x

Helen said...

Morning JJ (morning for me that is). I thought I'd pop over to you and see how you're getting on.

It is difficult. Really difficult. It doesn't mean you aren't cut out to do it, you just have to perservere. I read an interview with Dawn French in one of the sunday magazines and she is writing her memoirs. She said she was struggling and that it was really really hard (to write). It happens to everyone, expecially when you have confidence crisises every minute (like me). Please keep going. You have been doing so well. Don't think about it just keep going.xx

Jenny Beattie said...

Hi Caroline and Helen

I'm trying to keep going. I've made myself a sign to tell me what I need, and the words are being eeked out a few at a time.

I've given up approximately 28 times today (but gone back to it each time...)

Thank you for your support. I really didn't want to hear it was a piece of piss for everyone else!

Jen said...

I don't know about hard... I think positively painful sums it up for me at the mo. Have been 'writing' since 5.30 this morning. It's now 11 and I've only manage to drag out 300-odd words.

It would be easier and less agonising to tear out my own toenails with a pair of rusty pliers.

If it were easy, we probably wouldn't want to do it?

Just keep at it, it's the only way.

X

Jenny Beattie said...

Jen
I've been 'writing' all day as well, and I've managed a similar paltry amount of original words - I'm only not cutting my wrists because a further 500 were re-written from the edited out notes...so I'm pretending I've actually written 800!

Denial's the place to be!
JJx

Rose Red Art said...

It is hard... and difficult and everything else in between.

It's all part of process, unfortunately.

Keep at it! We all have wobbles or wibbles or doubts or whatever you like to call them.

You are not alone.

Angie said...

Oh god, I'm wondering the same thing! Glad to see everyone else is in the same boat. I mean not glad, but you know, comforted... :)

Carol said...

JJ - Don't focus on the negative stuff.....hey you achieved 300 words today!! That's more that you had when you started AND you have been able to add another 500 that you had already written so they were not a waste of your time either!!

I think all of you are brave for even trying (not to mention keeping going when actually all you want to do is scream and throw your laptops out the window!!)

C x

Jenny Beattie said...

A.Writer, It's comforting to know that finding it hard doesn't mean I'm no good at it. Thank you for being here.

Angie, Yep, I don't like to think of everyone struggling, but am comforted by the idea that I am not the only one finding it hard.

Carol, You're right, and I did end the day feeling that I'd done okay. It's all learning and it can be hard.

hesitant scribe said...

I popped over to a rather long over due hello, and was posting here to comfort you, but you know what, the comments have comforted me! Sorry. But just to know that the writing is hard (soo hard) helps. And Caroline, I crawled under the table a month ago and haven't been able to come out again yet. Oh dear. JJ, am so crap at this. I do hope you feel better and haven't got stuck under the table with me (although if you did we could have a chat about it....)

Jenny Beattie said...

Lisa honey, we can always chat about it, even if I'm not quite under the table (usually, it's a place I'm close to comtemplating...) I am a bit better at the moment, though not as productive as I'd like to be, BUT at the moment any words are welcome. Prolific isn't an issue for me at the moment, trickling is even welcome.

I am very glad the comments comforted you. They did me too. I imagined that for everyone else it just splurges out, and if I'm dragging them out, perhaps I wasn't cut out for this after all.

Please try to stop worrying about it and give yourself permission to not write while the kids are home. It won't be long before you're back on the go.

JJx